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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 00:39

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Put me off passion for life!!

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

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When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

It was going to be , some day.

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

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I don,t even have a pension.

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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I know ,a lot about trauma.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

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At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Why is my elder sister so mean?

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

She loved him until the end.

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I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Why is there so much evil in the world?

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

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He resisted the act ,that day.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

As i do to all so called friends.?

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

We all went to grammer schools

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I was 9 years of age.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

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This is soul school!.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

All the time i was locked up.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Who then, do I blame.?

Why did i forgive my father ?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I think the readers, may guess!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

She wouldn,t have been !

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

So, i spoilt her more .

Especially a lifetime of it.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But, we were locked up after school.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

And i lived it daily.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I never cut or harmed myself..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I write beautiful poetry .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

She found it foreign!.

She married twice! .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Would this be the day?

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I was scared of men, in general

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He knew the spot.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I was seconnd youngest,

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

(And it was in our own minds.)

I said to her

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But it wasn’t much.

I will be 64.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

My life is so biszare .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Im still living with it.

I couldn’t, believe it.

When she asked me how she looked .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I have no regrets .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

But ive been too sick for many years..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My family never makes their pension either.

I was very sick at this time too.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

We were not on the streets..

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I waited trembling.

One cannot live in the past .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Ive learnt so much.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Comes on , in middle age.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She was in good health!

I could never make a relationship work though!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

What did i know ?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!